Tonight is a Right Away Great Captain night.
Basically listening to these songs are what i listen to when i'm terribly sad.
Today i found out that i will not be Jasmine in the school play Aladdin.
It's my senior year and i totally 100% deserve that part.
My best friend is Aladdin, and its so hard for me to be happy for him, but i am.
It just sucks that i'm not able to like show the world how awesome i would play that part.
I'm so sick of constantly being dissapointed.
I feel like since February of 2009, my whole life has been one big fucking dissapointment.
I miss Stevie being at my school.
Like i have no one to talk to, and really talk about stuff to at school everyday.
I don't know what to do with my life.
I want to go to college, but i don't.
I just want to go out and experience life without having all kinds of nonsense shoved down my throat.
I'm so afraid i'm going to grow up and be an addict.
I really don't want to die from that.
I want to be 100 years old and have grandchildren.
I want to sit on my porch swing, old as allgetout, laughing my ass off.
But i just dont see that coming true.
I miss so many people that have been in my life, but aren't anymore.
It kills me.
It really does.
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