tendaychallege. partone.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.



Day one, folks.

1) ihateyouihateyouihateyou. why hadn't you just died? everything would have been so much easier that way. no shame, it wouldnt be as painful, i wouldnt have to figure this shit out. like just go away and leave me alone. its easier for me to not deal with it now. stop the texts, stop the voicemails. i cant stand the heartbreak. and why the fuck did you work so hard to adopt me, to just bail. huh? why??? i dont get it. do you have any idea what it feels like to be left by two fathers? any whatsoever? i know i'm supposed to become so great person, do great things and be strong. to not let this affect me, and to keep me from being a good person, that hurting me wont hurt you. But i want you to know, that you are apart of this downfall.

2) Thanks. I love how you help me to laugh. I like that i can be a fun and carefree person when i'm with you. You are my very best friend. Lugoff sucks. Airport sucks. Time for something bigger. You know i'm always here for you, and you're always there for me.
 <3 Anchor (:

3) Man. updownupdownupdownupdown. you are an idiot. like seriousy? you cant not have any idea? but i guess thats part of it. i'm always here for you when i shouldnt be. i'm working on that. 

4) You have always been my rock. Keeping me grounded. But you need to start backing off just a little. Dont keep bringing it up. Asking if i'm okay, asking whats going on? that doesnt help me. when i come down to your house, unless i ask you, or talk about certain things, dont mention it. 

5) You are my best friend. Will be forever. you know whats going on. I think i tell you stuff and you always help me, but a lot of times you dont really know how to react when im trying to tell you that i'm not okay. I'm sorry for putting that pressure on you. i dont do it on purpose, i just need to tell SOMEONE. Just thanks so much for always being there and making me laugh.

6) Dont worry about me. Dont try and stop me. Just youve gotta let me go. If i want to do it, im going to do it. I need space. Please stop putting me down, and patronizing me. You may think that you are never as bad as him, but sometimes the things you say to me, really sticks, and tears me apart. I dont mind you having that man in your life now, but dont talk about him, and like his favorite sports team just because he likes them. we
arent in the fourth grade. You're 44.

7) What happened to you? You're such a wannabe. Like what? You used to be completely against the people youre such "good" friends with. What happened to being different? And not giving a shit. You are NOT better than anyone else. Nobody thinks that the way you act is cool, or attractive. Its just an act, and its ridiculous.

8) You arent as bad as ^ but its still weird. You were always the cool crazy girl who didnt give one flying fuck, now you become like everyone else.

9) I miss you. We shared almost everything. Although i know if we were friends now, we would be so destructive of ourselves, but i miss the fun we had. I hope you're doing okay.

10) I fucking hate you, you bitch whore homewrecker.
       (i believe that sums it up)


well, there you go.